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a dear friend of mine always mentions this

"if you are able to rest well at night, that is the living testimony that you trust in Him about tomorrow."

word?

I pray haha

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you know what should REALLY keep you in check and pray with desperation and conviction

you wont even know you are being a Pharisee.

turning to a Pharisee is like Kobe getting the ball for the last-second shot.

it's so easy.

Oh how we need Thee

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admitting weakness due to a circumstance is not really saying you are weak.

do we really need to really smell and almost eat what we threw up in order to know that we are going to fall short with temporary things?

Grace must not be circumstantial.

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humanly love MUST be distinguished from the Divine Love

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i think its time to hibernate from blogging for sometime. ill think about it.

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i cant believe i was in China a year ago

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what would be the body be without the soul

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we are so fat that we dont even know how fat we are.

how pathetic our spiritual state is.

oh Lord have mercy

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이적 사랑

01 아주 오래전 일
02 그대랑**
03 다툼
04 빨래
05 두통***
06 보조개*
07 매듭*
08 네가 없는*****
09 끝내 전하지 못한 말
10 이상해


this album is truly about love ( love as in Humanly love. nothing more. nothing less. the stuff we like )

for those who just like beats.. this would not be the album. you must be able to understand the lyrics. must be comfortable with advanced Korean terms.

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our life is complicatedly simple

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remember Christ.

even if you don't. He will.

우리는 미쁨이 없을 지라도 주는 항상 미쁘시니 자기를 부인하실 수 없으시리라

WHAT!?!?!?!

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today was another reminder that life MUST be lived out, carried out. an action that is proactive, interactive, and effective.

life is not something you get dragged by. i think those are the one God will say "boy, peace out. you aint for me."

today during service, the last song we sang had a lot to do with what i have been writing about(praying)

Open the blind eyes
Unlock the deaf ears
Come to your people
As we draw near

we are drawing near. have you thought about that? that is living testimony that the spirit dwells in us

life Must go on.

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our generation must be able to see things with our hearts, not with our eyes.

we live in world that demands visualization, physically .

must see with your very own eyes for any sort of credential, any sort of trust and any sort of relationship.

God definitely gave us sight so that we may see, physically. yes, He did. however he gave us sight that we would ultimately see what is the unseen. He didnt give us a pair of eyes so that we may judge everything based on our dysfunctional eyes

i find myself having a hard time looking within the heart. we are bounded by the visual world when God calls us to supersede this world and to fix our eyes upon the Kingdom that is to come, in HIS time.

even in the chaotic world we live in today, there is order. order that is soon to come. that is why we need to prepare what is to come.

do you believe in it

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if you're cool, then im cool, then we're cool

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dont you hate it that you are a nobody when you wan to be somebody.

you are somebody. you dont have to prove the world. when you accept that you are a nobody, then He makes you that somebody.

hard to accept huh
hard to say yes to it huh
hard to acknoweldge and go with His plan huh
hard to trust in that huh

lets pray for faith.
after all, we are nobody. its pretty normal for us to say NO to all these things. that why He makes it a Yes

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i figured out why China is so dear to me now: China changed my life.

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i seriously want to live. in and out

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" To the angel of the church in Sardis write: These are the words of him who holds the seven spirits of God and the seven stars. I know your deeds; you have a reputation of being alive, but you are dead."

wow

im scared shizless

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life is slowly settling down

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this entry might be somewhat legible for the readers.

today, i decided to go get subway for dinner and there i met two UCLA friends of mine. we were just talking how our lives have been occupied with this that... typical over the dinner table type of conversation.

the turning point of the story comes about when i felt academically challenged by my two friends. both of them are doing very well academically and they have a Great, i mean GREAT future ahead ( seriously, i wish those two the BEST. i really pray that their talents would not go to a waste but really be used in a way where its like maxing out when bench pressing. that type of max-out )

the moment i was challenged to do better in school really got to me: what am I doing with my life. of course the conversation just ended as " oh ivan, you do it differently " and true, i do it differently than others at UCLA. maybe TOO different.

growing up, and still up to this day, i believe people who question why and how arent really meant to succeed in this world. they think too much. they waste time by just thinking and not getting to the point.

i am DEFINITELY not saying my two friends are NOT thinkers ( i think they hella stress about their future, which indicates the level of brain work that goes into it. this blog entry has NOTHING to do with my two friends )

so i sit here, in my room thinking, "i think i go against the flow. many times. and i wonder if im really up for the challenge. not really taking the way people go about. always doing things differently with a rather quixotic manner.

i think my brain crashes way too many times. it is seriously a internal battle. two thoughts. going at each other. constantly, intensely.


how do i exercise the freedom that has been given? Oh Lord, you are the way

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when a camera first came out and when photographers were able to develop the film, people were afraid of pictures because they thought their souls were being captured as well.

when souls are involved, people tend to take it seriously. so how come that is not the case for our generation? why are we so obsessed with pictures, cameras, videos. why cant we imagine with our hearts. why cant we depend on the sensitivity of the heart?

i hate when blog posts become about myself. not a great feeling instantly but its like getting a surgery for the better future.

NOW, lets have some balance.

real , surreal.
seen , unseen

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where is my Aaron in life?

you dont know me, and i dont know you.

so maybe I should just stop.